January 2011
44 posts
WEEDLESS 2011
I’m proud of myself for not smoking even though I really wanted to. Slowly learning that bad trips > being high. My pre-frontal cortex is pruning! My pre-frontal cortex is pruning!
THANKS TWITTER
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STRESS
OOZING FROM MY EYEBALLZ. I SHOULD HAVE GONE TO PUBLIC SCHOOL. FUCK ALL Y’ALL.
LAURENCE
Et le fait est que - il a demandé des bannanes et une serviette - parce qu’il existe justement quelque choses de pire que la mort. C’est ce que fait froid aux os quand on lit les récits d’un suicide: non le frêle cadavre accroché aux barreaux de la fênetre, mais ce que s’est passé dans ce coeur, juste avant.
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The internet stymies creativity.
IT COMES IN WAVES
You come in wavvves. vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv
SOMETIMES
Blue pill red pill green pill yellow pill. Pills. Pills pills pills. I’m still hazy about the issue - how long have you been taking them? What happens when you stop? Is it hereditary? (I’ve never asked. I’ll never ask)
What are the signs? How does one know they’re sinking slowly and softly (deliciously) into madness? Is it the violent, emotional mood swings? The aching,...
AND FEEL
I think I’m still allowed to feel.
I WANT TO CRY
But at the same time I feel relieved. What you speak is truth - albeit a hard truth - but a truth nonetheless. And a hard truth is more comforting, more concrete, then disillusionment. I need to stop focusing on me and my emotions (emotional, sexual, etc.). They get me nowhere.
Work. Work is the only thing that will save you. Work will see you through this. Work work work work work.
I WOULD LIKE TO THINK
That I am like a rock. Indestructible. Solid. Calm: at ease. I think I am good at lulling people into believing I am a rock. Or maybe it’s the nature of their own tendencies that cause them to think I’m a rock. Self-interested, disengaged, aloof. It’s hard not to take the same approach. Actually- by acting like a rock I am taking the same approach. But I do not waver, like...
“Everybody should do in their lifetime - sometime - two things. One, is to...”
– MYSTERY CLOUD
MY STOMACH FEELS LIKE IT'S GOING TO EXPLODE
THAT’S OKAY THOUGH IF it does, I’ll have a reason not to finish this essay. No?
TURKISH GOLD'S
And a lazy Saturday all to myself.
EPHEMERALLY NAKED
Ephemerally blissful, ephemerally clean, ephemerally rempli. (Ou, autrement, ephemerally PAS VIDE)
THE CHANNELS CHANGE- BUT IT'S ALL TELEVISION
Click- flash, click, click click- flash, face- flash, change, dick- flash, face- flash, flash flash flash click, immediate- flash, dick- flash, change, sex- flash, boy- flash, girl- flash, click, click click click, flash- vide- flash, you- flash, me, me me me you (nine)- flash, text text text click click click dick dick dick vide vide vide vide vide- flash.
“Before I was shot, I always thought that I was more half-there than all-there -...”
– Andy Warhol
I HAVE TWO
really terrific, really intelligent parents.
YOU LOOK CUTE TODAY
Also- when I see you, I see him. This is silly…
THIS IS THE ONLY ME I WILL EVER GET
AND OTHER INSPIRATIONAL SHIT LIKE THAT
BUT RLY THO, I'M RUNNING ON THREE HOURS OF SLEEP...
my best friend broke up with her boyfriend of one year and no we didn’t hook up and I’m learning it’s not possible to be at two places at once and maybe I’m a kind of shitty friend that doesn’t like to feel obliged and I have another year and a half of school but it’s alright because all of these things amount to right now - this point here - and there’s...
THE YEAR OF THE ALRIGHT AND SEMISOBERNESS AND
everything in between.